A Window Of Rest

After yet another all-nighter and a series of semi-sleepless nights, I am currently enjoying a window of rest. So I guess that's a YEY right? Hahaha.

Just a while ago I was thinking why I am allowing myself to be stressed out this much. Why on earth did I even choose to study in Ateneo? I'm guessing I would not be pressured and stressed out this much had I chosen to study in other schools. But why Ateneo?

That's when I realized maybe I'm a bit of a masochist. Not the kind who really likes getting hurt. I just realized, I like the stress. I like being pressured. I like driving myself crazy with all the deadlines. I like learning things. I like being in school.

Hahahaha. I think I maybe more of a geek than a semi-masochist. Hahaha.

I hate the feeling of not doing anything productive at all. I hate that I am not working up my brains or body. I feel like becoming "stupider" every time I allow myself to be idle.

And so I fill up my time doing senseless things rather than not doing at all.

That is why at this window of rest that I have for the coming weeks, I have chosen to watch "Are you Smarter than a 5th Grader?" and to write here instead of catching up on some much needed sleep.