On Holding on to Hope

I cannot contain my happiness anymore. It is just so much that I am actually taking precious Finance study time to write about it.

After a bazillion years, our Philo prof finally decided to give back our reflection papers. Well, normally I would dread having reflection papers returned, especially Philo papers at that, since I really do not do good. I do not do good in Philo at all. I mean, hands down to my wonderful prof who really does his very best trying to explain all the Philo stuff he is teaching us. He is really good and one will really understand his lectures well. I really appreciate the effort he puts into teaching and how he really is concerned about his students. It's just that I do not like Philo at all. And no matter how much I try to push myself, I just could not like it.

But this blog is not about my Philo class nor my Philo prof. This is about my reflection paper. My Philo reflection paper. The one returned today. The one I half-heartedly rushed from Matteo Balcony to Dela Costa Hall for.

The Philo reflection paper I got a B+ in.

Yes my friend. You read it right. I actually got a B+. I could not believe it either. I had to reread my paper like twice on my way back to Matteo trying to remember what I wrote that made me get that grade.

I wanted to jump.

I wanted to shout.

I wanted to hug each and every person I saw on my way back.

I wanted to just dance, dance, dance away.

But of course that would be sooo embarrassing considering that I was alone. Hahaha.

I am just so glad. I could not believe it. It is sooo mot me. I mean it's Philo. If it were Theo, I'd probably just shove it away. In Theo, you just have do some formula writing and you are good to go. But this is Philo! The one class I am super ENGOT on!

I am hoping this is a start of something new. Or a premonition that my OpMan exam result - btw, I just had my OpMan exam awhile ago - would just be as good. And not a consolation (in case I dis really bad in OpMan).

This just gave me hope. It gave me hope that this sem might not be the worst as I think it is. I still have about a week to make things better. Four more requirements I could give my best to to make this sem better.

This gave me a new perspective. This made me see things in a more positive way. Before this, I was just dreading this entire sem, praying that it would be over already. I thought of this sem as my worst grade-wise. But we will never know until I get my grades. Until then, I still have time to do better and be better. Hahaha.

Anyway, because I am just sooo happy, I will be putting here a copy of my paper. In another entry of course. This is just sooo long already. Hahaha.